So when?

The necessary hard conversation we need to have

Henrietta Aderoju

Mar 27, 2026

"Once this month pass, I'll start my 5am prayers"

"Just let me move to my apartment, I'd start my prayer vigil"

"I'm not going to stay over at her house starting from April"

"I promise, I'll start doing better in church activities after this month"

"I will start reading next Monday, for real this time, I have a lot of cover"

Between both of us, how are you doing with those plans?

No judgements, I can assure I'm in no place to judge, most of the things I come on here to talk about are my own personal struggles.

I think about the things I want to do and I tell myself "Oh, I will and must start next week, make my life no spoil"

Next week came and I tell myself I'll start in the evening when the sun is down and everywhere is cool

Rubbish excuse!

Tuesday will come and my new week resolutions is tugging at my chest

You said you will start yesterday oh, you said you will do this, you said you will take devotion seriously, you will make research , how far nau...

And then there's cognitive dissonance

Where my brain experiences discomfort because I'm not doing the right thing!

Can't I just do the right thing at the right time?

Must I procastinate?

Do I want my life to spoil?

Is this how I want to build wealth?

Who am I kidding?

Procrastinators know tomorrow never really come!

It's a lazy lie!

So I tried something this week, I broke the big work into pieces

Ten learning videos split in 5 days, two per day

Sit in the chair, stare and hope something is entering my brain from this Adel Bondok video on Thorax

It's boring, I can't lie but for the fulfilment I get after finishing my daily two videos

Worth it!

Or starting my day with God instead of doomscrolling?

It's amazing really

The reality

Sounds like pressure

But we don't really have time

I don't know If you ever think of it, but rapture is closer now than ever

This second is the only one we're sure of

We don't have time to contemplating taking our walk with God seriously

Or procrastinating the fulfilment of God's purpose in our life

There's no time

The battle with I and Me

There's a war

I'm telling you, there's a battle I, you, we have you to conquer

It's continuous, it's real

It's the one against you

Against your will, your comfort, the things you enjoy and then the person you are meant to be, the person of focus and discipline

The future you deserve

And we have to find a way around it

Because if we don't, our flesh and comfort wins

And where's that going to take anyone?

This is a hard conversation but I hope you sit with yourself today fully self conscious and see the state you are and in your own little way devise a way around it,

Tiny steps at a time